Perfect past. Uncertain future

24-2-06

2006-02-24T22:55:00.000+08:00

At Last......

The long awaitied weekend looms ahead, oh well, but it won't last long..*yawns*..it's been a really tiring week..and there's more ahead. Just finished a GP AQ question. I was writing quite well for the first part..after that i started to get crappy and then Jase called up . After that, i decided to put an end to my AQ answer, quite abruptly. Lol. To tell you the truth, i'm really worried for my GP now..can't seem to get out of the C5-C6 range for it..

Had Bio SPA today, everything went well other than a few minor glitcheds here and there as there always is during SPA practicals. They were testing skill C and D, so we didn't have to do any experiment although the relevant apparatus were provided for us.

Very tired. i was just thinking..what do i really write on my blog..? nothing really much but academics..actually it's the only thing that i can express my thoughts about haha..everything else is..i just can't mould them into sentences..

I was looking forward to coming online to see check up on me blog this evening, now i'm here i don't have anything to write about..ironical?..ok..maybe it's just this sleepiness..i'll just go to bed..

B0bby

End of weekend

2006-02-12T21:13:00.000+08:00

Weekdays fly by..weekends rush by even faster....hmm..wonder what everyone else is doing right now..have a chem pre-SPA tomorrow..
Actually..i was just thinking..what do we really gain out of all this science based experiments..things like, noting down sources of errors, observations. Just that day, we were going through practical corrections in class. Apparently, there's a model answer for almost every source of error, and students are supposed to memorise and regurgitate during the real practical assessment..which is in week 9. Some of the sources of error don't really make sense..for example..one of them was that of not using an ice bath to cool our product in order to induce crstalization. However, all of us did use an ice bath. Teacher said "just write it down because Cambridge wants these answers" *shrugs* so it's something like..the ice bath is there for you to use, but Cambridge doesn't want it there :P

Kinda had a slacky day today..went to church today, didn't have a chance to go play pool with the rest because of " Mount Homework" waiting for me at home...haha..anyway, i managed to get it done. Had Isaac and David over at me house for a little while..seems to me they're pretty keen to get a place quite near mine..yeah i live in a nice place, but then you get screechy singing sometimes in the late afternoons and early evenings by the neighbour's kid downstairs while having her bath. Oh yeah, and gales tearing through the house during..November-December. Lol.

Long week stretching ahead of me again..it's gonna be over in a flash, a blink of an eye. very soon..A levels..then NS..then Uni. Sometimes i just feel like turning back the time..so i won't have to grow up so quickly. Yeah, funny coming from me hm? But i just feel i haven't had enough of my childhood yet..need more to spare..We're all growing up. Growing up!..funny word..when i was a little kid, i'd go around telling people, i'm gonna be a paediatrician when i grow up! :) I can't wait to grow up! haha..what a contrast from what i view now.

Anyways..i have to be in bed by 10 today..yawns..PE tomorrow..i think we're doing a Pre-2.4km run..there's a test for everything..life is all about test..at school..Bio test, chem test, physics test, math test, lit test, chinese test, Physical fitness test. Test all the way...competition all the way. When we get a little older..tests come in different forms..more challenging perhaps..
G'night..*YAWNS*

-B0bby-

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2006-02-11T22:03:00.000+08:00

Been rather crappy lately, i don't rwally know why..i used to be more serious in the past..maybe i should say last year. Nowadays in tutorial..i actually have some reason to laugh or something..then i get distracted by some joke cracked by someone and don't really concentrate throughout the whole tutorial or so..I don't like this. It seems to be affecting my grades..i just feel that i'm underperforming a little :( Mr Ng seems to be stricter with us this year..he seemed quite pissed during NMR lecture that day. Lol, Jared said he Mr Ng looks happier in the morning lectures because of you know what..I personally agree with him..for once haha..

I've been strumming quite a bit today..and yesterday evening. Going to have to perform in front of my own class on Tuesday..for Valentine's day..I just know it's going to invite lots of comments..don't like people commenting on my playing..whether it be positive or negative....why am i in a performing arts grp then..guess i have to ask myself that..

Things seem to be moving at such a fast pace nowadays..what happened to the good old way of doing things at a relaxed pace..? Had a tough week..Monday, got screwed by PE teacher, didn't get crystals at chem lab, Tuesday, ok, Wednesday guitar string almost snapped, got called "Mr lawyer" by Mr Alex. Honestly, do i look like a lawyer? Law's the last thing i wanna do in University :P. Thursday, got disappointed over Bio test results, oh but i don't know what i got yet. Friday, fingers kept slipping over my guitar strings, i think the 6th string "E" is getting looser day by day, it's perpetually sounding out "Dng Dng", even when i give so much as a feather-like touch when playin. It gets a little stressful when everyone else's playing better than you do. And some people..yup some people actually judge you based on your ability to play well..especially in my CCA..i won't mention names but then..i think that's really superficial..

Tomorrow's Sunday and the Monday again. Lol, ok, now every week's starting to seem like a challenge..not like J1..it was so much more relaxed then, wish i could go back then for 5 mins..but then..we all have to move on..I should be studying right now, but here i am slacking away...haha..SMILLE ME :)

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2006-01-31T09:21:00.000+08:00

9:00am

Last day of holiday today..back to school tomorrow..=(.
waiting for Jase to come now..he's late again..about 1and a half hours late to be exact, luckily i don't have to go out today..

7:50pm

Another lazy day has just passed me by..didn't do any work today..feeling a little guilty. Relatives came visiting just now. Most of the time was spent playing "Rumicube" with cousins though. :) Kinda fun..although i only won 5 times out of the probably.. over 20 times we played.
Can't help thinking about the Bio MCQ test results we're going to be receiving tomorrow at school..i'm such a worry wart..dunno why..i think i've mentioned it before..bad genes from Dad..blame game :P..i've just got this sinking feeling inside me..oh well..no point worrying about now..be positive Reuben =D *BIG SMILE*After all..it's the A levels that really matter at the end of the day, not these little little tests.

Going to an old aged home for CIP tomorrow after school with some of the guitar pple. Going to have to play some songs to them..and i haven't practised any of those songs very well yet..have to go and do so, later :P..Procastinating again..
Won;t have much time to blog once school resumes tomorrow..i think this is the longest period of time i've been blogging over eversince i started it up..3 days straight. alright then, g'night blog..write on you again say...a few days time..

-B0bby-

29-1-06

2006-01-29T21:31:00.000+08:00

Eat, eat,eat ,eat, eat and eat. That's what i've been doing today.I swear i've put on at least 2 kg..have to lose all of it before cross country this Friday. Wonder if i'll be able to complete the whole thingy anyway lol ;) I just aim to keep running and running..that's what i always do. I'm ok with short distances like 2.4km.

Just came back from my aunt's house, for dinner. Expected. Steamboat and everything just piling up on my plate :p After that, i ended up teachign my younger cousin chemistry. Actually..i felt quite sorry for him..there just wasn't enough time to explain clearly to him everything, so i don't really think he got it all in..i know he's been having difficulties at school. Especially with chem. We used to be really close..used to go play at his house on weekends :) remember him being super naughty. He once threw my sandal down all the way down from the 14th floor..where he lives. Had to go down to the first floor to get it. I wasn't impressed. Lol.

Wanted to stay up till 12 last night, but i fell asleep waiting for that time..so while i was Zzzzzzzzzzzzz, quite alot of messages came in via my hp..woke up at 4 am to check those greetings and started sending my own greetings :), sighs..wanted to be the first one to greet all my friends.

Going visiting again tomorrow..i think about 2 more houses and we're done for chinese new year this year. Relatives coming to my house instead on Wednesday.

OK..nights..tired..zzzzzzzzzz

-B0bby-

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2006-01-28T21:43:00.000+08:00

It doesn't really feel like CNY eve although it's finally arrived. Just got back from my aunt's house. Had a reunion dinner there..well not really..not everyone was there..to tell you the truth..my family's never really had a proper reunion with everyone together before. With half of them all the way back in Sydney i doubt we'll ever get a chance for the perfect reunion. The food's nice though :)

Have another reunion tomorrow..lunch and dinner. It's always the same every year..good old times..going to miss those when i'm not around anymore..No, i'm not going to die or anything like that :) just in the midst of deciding if i should renounce my Singaporean citizenship or not..ive gotten used to the life here but well..it's just so different.

I always talk about sad things huh? haha..mum sometimes calls me a pessimist, and that's something i'll have to change. Talking to Aaron on msn now..at the same time.. he seems to be enjoying NS life..according to him, there're still lectures and tests then. Sounds alot like school to me. Gonna continue training hard all the same..

Tried studying for Hydrocarbons test today..Halogen derivatives, did the noteds and tutorials. Left out the last part of the notes though..getting sort of lazy. Studying on CNY eve? Bryan said i was destroying my holiday. Oh well..but i know i won't be touching my books for the next 3 days or so..so if i don't want to suffer when i get back next wednesday..i have to get something done at least. I keep telling myself to strike a balance between work and play, but for me, it seems to be either all work and no play or all play and no work. Lol. Almost forgot what today's date was this morning..cross country's coming right up next Friday. For a moment, i was pleased 'cause i thought we would miss the test because of cross country. Then i remembered that cross country was to be held after school itself. Painful isn't it? :") wishful thinking on mypart

going to bed now..having a long day again tmr..g'night..

-B0bby-

2006

2006-01-27T21:47:00.000+08:00

Well, friends always say my blog's practically rotting almost all year round.Eversince i started it, there've only been 23 posts. This is the 24th..
In JC2 now..time really flies..it seems just like yesterday when i stepped into AJ for the first time. I already started to realise..it's not going to be easy for any of us this year..A level year..no point getting all gloomy about it. But i guess i have to admit that i get pressured quite easily. Not Good. Bad Genes from Dad :) Blame game..haha.

I just realised how "unput" together my act is this year..not that i'm in no mood to study..i do study..but then..can't really seem to perform at any of the tests this year..things will get better :) i just need to get a little warmed up that's all. CNY holiday's looming ahead of us..but i've got tests on every subject after returning to school on Wednesday. Have to find some time between visits to study. Balance is the key.

There're some juniors of mine from Deyi this year at school. Funny thing is, i've never talked to any of them at Deyi before..i guess i was just too preoccupied in that little world of my own, as always. Nevertheless..it's always nice to see some familiar faces around, in familiar uniforms amidst the mass of grey and navy blue. Nice bunch of kids they are :) ok, maybe not kids anymore..i just feel that i can bond with them better than some of my J2 friends..5 young ladies and a gentleman. You know..whenever you see your juniors enjoying themselves..enjoying what they're doing..you just can't help feeling pleasant yourself..well..that's how i feel anyway. Hope they all get to stay in AJ. All the best to you girls and um..yea..one guy. Haha..they guys always seem to be outnumbered.

Went back to Deyi today after school. We weren't spared from lessons today, as usual. The celbration ended at about 11:50am..so i reached back to that old place at about..12 plus. Haha..old place. Went with Sisca and Katrina and..another girl whose name i don't really know..have to make a point to find out soon. As expected, most of the teachers had already left school for home. I only managed to talk to Mrs Ang, my former English teacher. It's really nice to talk to your Ex teachers and find out what they really think of you lol. Tease them, find out more about life from them..teaching is a noble profession. After a long conversation, i walked to the canteen. The canteen that once bustled with familiar faces and familiar sounds from familiar sources. It was quite dim in the canteen..lights were off..i'm quite a sentimental person actually..I felt..actually quite sad while standing in the dimly lit canteen all by myself, recalling all the fun times i had in that very place with friends..i do have pals in AJ..but somehow..it's just different..the warmness in friendship which i experienced in Deyi just isn't in this current batch of friends i have..my class i'm referring to. One of my juniors was actually very sweet, asked me if i would "cry" and be lonely after they left..haha..thanks very much :) i'm quite used to being by myself, you're a great gal! You know who you are.

Met Kent at NYP after returning to Deyi. Had lunch at the canteen over there. I understand why many of my fellow schoolmates prefer NYP food as opposed to the food in AJ's canteen :P. Went to Marina bay after that, played some arcade then headed over to the Esplanade for a good chat and drink with Kent. He's changed alot actually, although he said he hasn't..everyone has changed..I don't like change..can't be helped though..the only thing that isn't changing is the fact that there will always be change.

Alrighties, long day stretching behind me..gonna go to sleep. Good night everyone :)

--"you xie hua wo ye bu zhi dao gai zhen me jiang"

-B0bby-

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2005-12-18T18:35:00.000+08:00

Gotta start excercising aagin soon, i haven't been doing so eversince the start of December..hm..lack of discipline..and a little something called laziness..Anyway, going to run with jai tomorrow..hope i haven't lost too much grou8nd on running..pull ups..still ok..press ups..ok..sit ups..ok..just running..if you ask me i think my main problem is that i lack stamina..i guess i have tto build that up overtime..hopefully PE teacher next year isn't Mr Alex Lee again..phew..

Only 2 more weeks or so of holiday left..what did i do..can;t really remember..haha..goldfish memory..i think most of my afternoons were taken up by naps, catnaps and snoozes...typing with 1 hand ain't easy..pizza's here..gotta eat..cya pple take care and enjoy the rest of the holidays

B0bby

Monday (17-10-05)

2005-10-17T22:30:00.000+08:00

I guess this will be my trend of titles from now on :), finally found one. Basically have all my promo results now, alright, i made some slight improvement *pats on the back* but i'm gonna aim for greater heights, and so should everyone "jiayou"!. Had a little dispute with someone this morning..almost spoilt my day but thankfully it didn't..i mean..it's a bit unfair to expect the only guys in your class to be gentlemanly all the time..day in day out..all the 2 years you spend with them in class isn't it? Sometimes i care too much over what people think of me..this is a habit that i will have to change..it's not good..everyone has his or her own life and we all have to move on whether we like or not so it doesn't really matter what people think of you be it good or bad.
People usually assume too much for their own good..for instance..almost everyone seems to think that a certain person in class is anti-social..but then..they haven't even tried really talking to this particular person yet or try to get to know this person better. I talked alot with this person today..well..not alot but significantly more than i would any other day, and found out that it's actually quite pleasant talking with so and so.
Found my guitar file in the reading room today. The school attendants were just clearing up the reading room, luckily i got to that little corner of the room before they did, otherwise i woudn't even have had a chance to bid farewell to it. I have 2 hours of CLAO lessons to look forward to tomorrow..well..at least i did some chinese revision today..pretty worried for my multiple choice questions..especially for section 2 and 3..i usually do them based on luck..and for promos, i got every one of them wrong..it got quite demoralising. That's about it for today, Good night then

B0bby

Saturday............o0

2005-10-15T19:34:00.000+08:00

We had open house today at school, wonder how those secondary 4 students see AJ as now...i feel that our batch of students have been more successful at livening up AJ than the previous batch lol. At least i don't think that AJ is that bad a mugger school nowadays. Reported at guitar room too early..about 7:15am i guess and found that it was locked. They started fogging the place to rid it of mosquitoes so basically, there was this smell around, had to run for cover :) Don't know why i started to think that that was a trace of cyanide in that smoke..being a Bio student makes you paranoid..of many things..ignorance is bliss. Anyway, the guitar room was opened at 7:40am 10 minutes late ..heh heh Guo Hui, luckily i was nice enough to allow you to keep your head on your shoulders today =P. None of my juniors turned up at AJ today, i was quite disappointed actually, haven't seen em for long..wonder how their preparations for the O's are coming along. I pasted a sticker on my guitar (i made it) better helps in identification because if you line everyone's guitars up on the wall they all look almost the same..oh well..those 3 songs we played today to attract patrons were quite messy, specially my part. Playing triplets can make you go all wrong at times. My fingers were practically sprinting across the fretboard during "Romance De Amour's" piece. At least the hard layer of skin on my fingers are coming back :Pm After lunch, one of the school attendants..the one who was interviewed durting a video clip showed to us during one of the mass civics lessons..yea..him..was sorta ordering us around to arrange the tables and benches back in their rightful benches. That was slightly Pissing..don't like to be bossed about ';...;'
Left my black file with all the scores inside in school for the second time today..hope it's still around come Monday..prolly be troublesome to photocopy every single score again..and having to mark on them again like i did on the old ones.
Came home by bus and slept for 1 half hours..basically a very slacky afternoon..Idle hands are the devil's workshop..Lol :) that phrase kept popping up in my mind this afternoon..i'm not too used to having nothing to do cause i'd usually be busy with something or other..Read some blogs, watched some TV, ate dinner and here i am now, blogging. Yes, this shows how free i am lol, because i usually don't blog at all during normal days, so much so that someone commented that my blog is "rotting" :P lol you know who you are ="D

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2005-10-14T21:04:00.000+08:00

What can i say? it's always the same thing "i've not blogged for long and now i'm back again to blog hihi" :p lol
Oh well..the last time i blogged was way before promos yes, so you can probably guess how many donkey years that was ago. Anyway almost everything is over now, except for OP exam and CLAO at the end of this month. Once these 2 are over i'm free :) not that i'm worrying very much about both of em..hm..open house tomorrow, Guo Hui kept emphasising that we were to learn our pieces properly so that he could keep his head, Lol. Personally i think it would be fun to watch his head roll =D..Kidding. Went out with the Ensemble mates today for dinner. I can really say i'm much happier and livelier in their company rather than in 1605..it's so much..different.
Once again, time really flies..it's been one hectic year..and i'm sure it's going to be worst next year. I can still remember the time when all of us were in our secondary school uniforms and attending open houses and worrying about if we could get into the JC of our choice. As of now, we've almost completed JC1..indeed, JC life is definitely the shortest..um..can't find a word for it, anyway, you know what i mean :)
Oh yeah, you 3 still visiting my blog regularyly huh? Z.M., Ivan and Alex lol sorry, it seems that you come here more often than i myself do
.P.S. By the way thanks for asking just now ZM, sry to reply u so late my phone has no vibration whatsoever in silent mode. You didn't look too happy yourself either actually, anything the matter?

-B0bby

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2005-08-16T22:16:00.000+08:00

Seems like i'm blogging once every 2 months or so..i was just reflecting..you know...i was just thinking..about the people whom we interact with every single day..for instance..classmates..in a way i feel that..things aren't what they seem anymore. Yeah, we all had fun in the past..1805 sure did rock in the first 3 months of my JC life. Although 6 of the guys left after provisional entry, things did look droop for a while but lightened up considerably after some time..well now they seem to be plunging again..are your classmates..only good to have around when you want to have fun..or are they truly reliable..when you are in dire straits. They say most asians are apathetic..and i agree as well..where i came from, people weren't apathetic at all..they would sit down with you..talk to you when you have a certain problem..show genuine concern..when i came to Singapore..i realised you still do get this sort of people, but much less. My class for example..yeah you get nice people..won't mention any names here..i know how news spreads like wildfire..you get ugly people..and you get D. BITCHES too. Sorry, i really don't mean to talk about some of my classmates this way but then i've stood it for 7 months already. There is only so much a person can take..some people think they rule the world..feel that they ought to have things their own way always..feel that they ought to kick up a fuss, throw a tantrum, sulk for a little while and after they've cooled down, remain thick skinned and " Hey! how to do this question?". No not everyone of the class is like this , not everyone. I am one of the two guys in this class but then don't feel that just because i am a guy and i'm supposed to give way to you, one day i might just turn around and give a slap which might knock your head off your shoulders, i mean it. I re-iterate, i am not gentle little bobby ALL the time..i can be your friend, laugh and joke with you but if you push my limits too hard , trust me, you don't EVER WANT TO BE AROUND ME, i'll still give you hElL. Being a girl doesn't give you the right to walk all over people. YOU"RE human TOO. A little bit is okay, sometimes i might set my limit a little higher, but most of the time i'm just taking it all in.

Get that? :) That is why i didn't mention any names. I am still ol'Bobby who wants to get along well with people..don't wish to make enemies. I used to have a very bad temper in the past..so far..for these 2 years it's never got the better of me and i hope it doesn't. anger is the most destructive weapon a person can possess. I promise this will be the last blog entry that i ever use such strong expressions =D

B0bby

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2005-07-24T21:40:00.000+08:00

Took a long break from blogging..again..'ve beeen busy lately, not much time to get online. what is wrong with me..i'm starting to dislike pple now..all for trivial reasons..i know this isn't right..hm..maybe it's just a stage i'm going through..thankfully..i'm able to control this..my facial expressions..such that no one would no if i'm talking about them or not..feeling so anitisocial lately..*sighs* sleepy...g'night...

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2005-07-08T21:14:00.000+08:00

Hiya blog..hey..haven't blogged for some time yet again..yeah..prolly crazy of me..talking to my blog..oh well..we have all our common test results now..i have BDEO B for chinese..oh yes, we haven't gotten our GP marks back yet..
I don't want to talk about marks anymore. This isn't me. We had this DISC talk together..we had a similar talk like this in secondary school.
Was talking to Ivan just now..it seems we have almost the same thinking..basically thinking the same thing..no wonder they say children are the happiest creatures upon the face of this Earth..adults are just miserable..and we? basciallyy in the middle..on our way to being miserable. But wait, don't say i'm pessimistic yet :) it's just a general trend...also..from the observations we made..somehow..it just seems tough being fully mature. i haven't gotten there yet..
I was talking with a slight indian accent today..don't know why..pple seemed to think it was funny lol..it was my kinda way of alleviating stress i guess..hm..i only talk with an accent when i've got lots of feelings to hide..i've noticed..it sure is a funny way of covering up your feelings but then it works and pple around you don't really feel anything 's wrong wth you. so yup.
If i stop feeling agitated with pple perhaps i'll be a happier person..to tell you the trueth..i think that i'm a pretty fired up person inside if you ever tried to look inside of me. i just keep so much inside that no one would know who i really am..like i said..wear a mask..
deceive others but not yurself..life's a game..concerned pple will ask you if there's anything wrong..but then most woudn't, and i woudn't want them to anyway. It's just so difficult to do so sometimes..never mind..just WHAT am i writing..? Lol, scrolling up and down this blog entry i do wonder where all this came from..

Night

B0bby

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2005-06-24T22:04:00.000+08:00

oh well, haven't blogged for some time now..hm..hey Ivan, Alex, you guys having some discussion on my blog or something? Lol..Re-revised my chem today..hope it stays for good in here this time..well it's not as though i coudn't remember what i learnt but then i just wanted to make sure. Going to do maths re and bio re too tomorrow. I'm dropping econs..so i guess i'll just have a read through it..as some form of preparation..
It's just that when you're too sensitive you just can' bear to write all your thoughts down even on your blog because you don't want to hurt someone..what's the use of a blog then? Haven't tought my guitar for many many years now...i think it's gotta be out of tune by now..lol. Went to play badminton with Ivan, Alex, Yanling, Wei Ling and Vanda yesterday..badminton's great fun..although Ivan only booked the court for 2 hours, i bet i coud've gone on for another 2 hrs or so..till i get really tired..i initially wanted to join AJ badminton team..but coudn't get in..Heard they only chose 2 or 3 people to be on the school team at the selections..Many of em appealed in AJ by Badminton so..
Can't wait for the common tests to be over..mugging's no fun..i just do it..cause..i have to do it..Gonna watch War of the Worlds with Joel and the rest next Sunday after church. I'm going to take a well needed break after the tests..even now as i take a break from mugging i can't help but feel a little uneasy..yeah true, i'm a stressed up person most of a time..but i've learnt to hide most of my feelings and i can live like this.
Saw Wilson on bus 13 yesterday (good Omen) too bad i only saw him when he was alighting, i only had a chance to tap him with my racket just after noticing him and then he had to get off..pity. Haha, he's changed alright, yup and his hair was dyes and sort of long. He's finally grown out of that "spiking hair" stage he used to be in when we were both back in Deyi. Come to think of i, i miss my sec 4 class..sorry to say but then i think that our class back in sec 4 was much more united then it is now..now it's all like..mug and drug class..i'm not as much of a mugger like i used to be back in sec 3 and 4. Sometimes i just dread going back to school, well yeah, everything has gotta do with yourself. you've got to be positive and stuff like that, only THEN will your life take a turn for the better. Yes i agree with all that :) it's just that somehow, i don't feeel a connection with my current class anymore. Yup true, i can get aong with individuals in the class , but then the feeling of being a class altogether isn't there anymore. Full stop.
As people..we shoudn't compare so much..shld not look back at the past and reminiscene so much, but then it can't be helped at times.
Kent was a really great pal back in Deyi. We sat side by side in class last year . He helped me with maths, i helped him with humanities..we could talk about lotsa stuff..haha ..he's almost like Jase, although not so personality wise. Then there was Eric, who cracked many jokes in Hokkien dialect, he still rings up for a chat at times..Also Cipto, who acted like a gay lol :P he's indonesian by the way, Allan great B-ball player, Wei chuan-potential comedian, Wilson-Professional slacker, Wang Peng-Mr cool guy, Kian Kuan-mr knowledgeable, Jui Yong-White duck, Jeremy- The very nice guy. Although there were only 10 guys in class, excludin me, haha they made my day everday ;) All the best in your future endeavours dudes!
Don't know how else to put it..some things can't be expressed in word form i guess..hm..nights

B0bby

Home at last :)

2005-06-18T11:17:00.000+08:00

Heyyy people..i know only 4 or 5 of you read my blog, lol, can count. Anyways..i'll start off here..went to malaysia Desaru for a church camp. Pretty unexpected actually, but then the singapore customs was actually slower than the malaysian one. Haha..when we were going. I had some problem with my passport apparently..i forgot to sign my passport..how forgetful of me..luckily nothing really big cropped up..heard how those malaysian customs can get really nasty. 2 and a half hours drive from the second link all the way up to the hotel..it wasn't very long of course, but when you're in a coach travelling on come bumpy unfamiliar road it seems like an eternity. The hotel was kinda old..i remember we had a church camp at that same hotel about 5 years ago..that would be about primary 6 i guess..anyways..hotel was kinda old and run down..the ceiling in front of my room was leaking rather badly such that we had to stand a ways from the door to open it. Andy was my roomate this time. Lol, we were too lazy to bring the room key whereever we went so we placed itr on the ledge outside the room whenever we were out. Took a pix of the room..named it "icebox" Darn, i don't know why even at 20 deg celius air con setting it was freezing..blanket at night wasn't much help..as expected my nose was running almost all the time in the room :P. Timotheus brought his PS2 to the camp and..i guess it was pretty much of a spoiler..many of us guys spent quite some time in his room playing that..i didn't play actually, didn't get a chance to..but it doesn't matter..Beach was cool..the sand was nothing like the one we have here, it was much softer and siftier..(is there such a word?). Had a stomachache on the second day..i think..so i consumed a bottle of "po chai" pills..wanted to fill that empty bottle with sand from over there but forgot :(. That always happens when i start putting off things. Played frisbee, beach volleyball, soccer, captain's ball and card games. Of cpurse not forgetting the bible lessons :) and of course my sharing..heh..didn't really screw up as much as i thought..once you're up there it isn't so bad..
Tim is a really pampered kid, his mom prolly doesn't even teach him to pick up after himself. On the afternoon of the third day, i compaanied him to buy cotton buds..waited outside the store for him. He came out with a packet of cotton buds, a bag of cup noodles, some twisties and an ice cream stick..I think paddle pop? I was thinking, hey kid where do you get all your money from? to buy so much stuff? i only had a meagre amount of RM with me at that time. Anyway, he threw cotton bud on the floor outside his room after using it , afterwhich he took out the ice cream from the cover and simply dropped the wrapping on the floor. When i asked him to pick it up he just like..gave me a look..and then when we returened to his room i heard him mutterting something like "shut up". Damn i was kinda pissed at that time but then i sorta cooled down after reminding myself he was only 13..can't expect much from a kid..after all..he's gonna grow up with this littering habit and get into trouble in future..not much of my problem if you ask me.
On the last night of the camp i hardly slept lol. Went to cynthia's room and started playing cardas with the guys. The girls were playing "mahjong" with Max and Marytn..they weren't betting money of course. It's amazing how one can be entertained by a few cards at hand and not notice how time flies..after that, went back with andy to our room..at about 1am something..? watched soccer-Argentina Vs Tunisia. Lol i haven't watched soccer for some time now. Andy's life is all about soccer, everything he talks about is almost all about soccer, soccer this soccer that Lol..i don't really mind though..i haven't seen anyone know so much about soccer..
The ride back to Singapore seemed shorter..prolly because everyong was so tired out they fell alsepp on the coasch..including me..Debbie puked caused the road was too bumpy and the bus was shaking like a leaf..charmaine felt like puking..finally we had to stop cuz too many people had green faces (not me ;) You know what was ironical about this whole incident? the bus's name was "cheery" bus. Yup, i'm not kidding, it was written on the side window pane.
Now i'm back in Singapore..haiiiiiiii...have to mug again..not too hard of course :Pthat holiday really took my mind off studying for a while..which is good..well then..this is prolly the longest blog i've typed..lol, lets take a look..

B0bby

Slacky day

2005-06-08T21:04:00.000+08:00

Went to the library with Bryan today..supposedly to mug. But then we ended up talking more than mugging..haha guess his slacking aura was more powerful than my mugging aura..how nice. Had to really catch up with him..he's the kind of person..who is really nice to talk to..i don't know..you'd just enjoy talking to him at least i did :) had a chocolate milkshake and stole some Bryan's fries yup. After that we went to Tiffany's house to slack a little. Kinda cosy i must say..dark and cool. Tiff has a guitar..she can play more than me lol. Bryan was laughing all the way through while i held the guitar. Haha alsmot threw the guit at him. Bryan seems pretty popular at tiff's house..hm..he must have been there pretty often to be so..after all they live like..4 streets away frrom each other?
Tomorrow's thursday already..scary..time flies..have to catch up with the wrok i didn't do today..*yawns* gonna go sleep soon..g'night!

B0bby

Why do i always have some problem choosing a title?

2005-06-07T22:38:00.000+08:00

Hi blog..me again..yup here to pen some thoughts down..or rather type em on you..i didn't do much today..only a bit of maths..and that's all. Haha i won't be surprised if i die a horrible death for the mid year common tests..it's true..yup i do mug but then i somehow manage to screw up a lil during the tests..a lil here a lil there makes up one big screw up! I'll just study try my best and come out with no regrets..that's what i told xuan yang a few days ago before he sat for O level chinese..haha..it's hard to practice what you preach..that's why i don't really preach much . Z.M asked me a chem question just now. It was then that i realised how much i forgot..maybe wasn't even paying attention during lecture..i'm always like this. Anyway, i had to refer to the notes..i didn't even know the answer was in the notes till she told me lol. Thanks ZM! because of u i managed to do a bit of revision online too lol. Going out with Kent this friday..he ends school early..sometimes i really envy him..Poly goers seem really free..he's got only 1 period which lasts for about 2 hours on wednesdays and fridays..sometimes i really do wonder if i should have gone to poly instead..many people who take combined science go to poly..well at least my class did..cept me..guess i wanted to be different..want to do something with medicine still :) i've been online alot recently..i can't believe myself sometimes..i must be too used to doing work all the time..such that i feel guilty for watching tele or playing a bit of PC games for a while..i don't feel i've accomplished much this holiday at all..yup i do hmwk and start muggin early and stuff...but do i really remember what i mugged....But i went to the gym today and had a great workout :)) something done at least..did manage to take my mind off studies for a while..i try to tell myself..life is more than studying and studying..Took out my guitar to play..suddenly i was just strumming the chords of "over the rainbow again" haha thats the only thing i really know how to play..then i tried other simple songs..fingers getting hard and starting to peel off (skin) well then it's been a long day..my days are usually long to me..cuz..i fight many battles in my mind..i'm sure everyone does though..need a good rest night :)

B0bby

Back

2005-06-06T18:00:00.000+08:00

Went to Jase's house for a stay last night..feels better to be back at home..yawns..didn't really sleep last night haha..i guess i'm not too used to sleeping elsewhere other than home..anyway, haven't blogged for soem time now..i'm back! :) really got to get some work done...went for econs make up lesson this morning..wasn't really listening..got 8 out of 15 for that MCQ thingy. Really careless..after that i had to have a haircut..hair was simply getting too long..you know..in my eyes and all that..and people at church were commenting and all that..yup..basically why i cut my hair..looks a tad short now..not used to having short hair..the barber kept asking if i wanted a change in hairstyle..he's been cutting my hair for at least 12 years already..haha and all the time the same hairstlye..guess he must have been getting bored of it eh..? but this is me..it woudn't be me otherwise i've said before..dunno why..so tired..i gotta rest my eyes..night..a bitt early..

B0bby

Having a short break now :)

2005-06-03T11:44:00.000+08:00

Finished up to haemoglobin and collagen..gonna have to revise cell and nuclear membrane again soon..i think i forgot a little here and there..but what really matters is that i've got something done :)

Today is the day

2005-06-02T22:05:00.000+08:00

Today is the day that i was online for like 2 and a half hours..logged off feeling real guilty..haha..was actually late for my appt with Jase at AMK library..we didn't do anything much..did chinese book reviews. Actually, i had to read 1 whole chinese book over the holidays, but then, i ended up cheating and chose a book with short stories..then i picked one out, read it( 20 pages) and did my review Lol! the teacher's not gonna know i hope..but even if she does..i don't think anything exciting will happen..she's such a slacker. Jase kept getting distracted from his review by other books. Haha i actually had to pull those books away from him and forced him to complete his review..in the end, it dragged till 6, and i was hovering impatiently over him as he scribbled furiously on that crumpled piece of paper :). The libriarian wasn't very nice. """the bench isn't for you to put things on!"""..then..why are so many people putting their butts on it!? darn i was just using the bench as a table and she had to make some scene..Jase was lounging on the couch at that time so i had to take the full rap..i didn't leave the bench..just put my butt on it and started writing using my lap as a support..what's the difference? haha..but i guess that's how libriarians are..don't wanna condemn them just for this incident..after all wasn't i one last year..? Went to church after dinner with Jase. Jase followed me all the way to the bus stop near church then all the way back to his home..we took the wrong bus..74..Talked to Daren..his hand hadn't healed yet..iat first i thought he had broke his hand wwhile training at camp but then he told me he broke it when he was playing soccer..gotta really hand it to him..took up a bike riding course in NS and having an intelligence unit post back there..alrights Night!

B0bby..

!st June

2005-06-01T21:37:00.000+08:00

I've officially decided to drop Econs lol. I spent the whole day reading 18 pages of notes only to find out i understood..a quarter page..? =") hrmz..went to see the doctor again..luckily mum works there or not we'd be broke?..just exaggerating..this year hasn't been too good..i've already been to the doctor..about 6 times..5 times because of micoplasma in March and once today. Resistance been really down..Doctor must be sick of my face by now Lol..kinda embarrasing to know that the nurses at the counter know your name already and keep smiling ..I'm in no mood to mug these holidays..i just feel like lazing around..and doing..n-o-t-h-i-n-g. But can't..Gotta study study sutdy..GO GO GO! Sometime you just gotta psyche yourself on..when you know you're tired of running the rat race ( not saying i'm a rat..or anyone) you have to find yourself some motivation in some sort...
Jase finally came back today..sounded really tired when he called just now..anyway i dunno why but then there's some telepathy between us already haha..there should be after 10 years..Going to AMK library tomorrow to get a chinese book for a book review..i have simply not much of an idea how to chinese book reviews..never done one before..but it's all good..there's always a first time for everything. I'm in a "daoing" mood again today..closed my msn when i came online tonight..not that i don't enjoying talking to them..they rock my online world and add life to those dreary moments when i have to do some boring PC work (eg: typing out stuff for school..doing PI etc)..Lol especially Alex, Ivan and Bryan if they come online to name a few of em.. =) compliment for you guys if you ever read this.
Haven't touched the guitar for days..really gotta get down to some practice, i'm sure the strings are all out of tune by now..they always go heywire after a while of not touching them. Have to get some tabs from the mates at guitar club soon, or else that guitar's gonna end up as a white elephant. i'm gonna learn to play something at least by the end of this holiday.
Been spending more time on the PC lately..perhaps it's becuase i started up this blog..? come to think of it..i don't think many pple know about my blog..haha never really told many of them..neither does Jase..his blog is the other one on this account..that's how "two of us" came about. Looking forward to seeing you tomorrow Jase, haven't seen you for days!..
Weather's hot..gonna drench myself now and perhaps..get down to understand a bit more of those notes..at least try to..i can't give up without a fight can i? =) Night..

..A Salmon swims upstream to it's place of origin, to mate, and then to die. It is dangerous, it is reckless, it is stupid, but it is noble..and by Jove, it is beautiful..

B0bby

What a day

2005-05-31T22:00:00.000+08:00

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2005-05-30T21:59:00.000+08:00

Jase's at camp, Ram's in India and Kent's prolly mugging away for module exam..me..? slacking here.. not much done..no one to talk to, nevertheless, it's always been the same. Typed out a sharing for church camp just now..been on the comp for hours now..dad's writing is really bad and these words are bombarstic..haha..my english has deproved perhaps..gotta really thank Jase for that..Lol. I've never had much of a social life..when i go on msn i usually reply pple with short abrupt sentences..sometimes i just close my msn when i go online (it signs me on automatically) these few days however..it's been different..why have i changed so much in a matter of a few days..probably my inner self i never really knew who's wanting to widen my own social circle..was just talking to so many pple at once..Thai Mun, Ivan, Huey Eng, Justin..haha maybe not alot, but for a person who "daos" msn so often this is really a whole crowd...multi tasking not a good habit..must get rid of it somehow..Lying on bed while doing work not a good idea..tend to fall asleep..thats what happened just now actually, i wasted bout an hour..woke up thinking it was the next morning and feeling stupid thereafter..mind racing..sleepy now..been plugging those 2 headphones into my ears for too long a time i guess..no inspiration to write something inspirational now..
ometimes i should just open up more to people..i'm too guarded i guess..too cautious..I still remember Alex telling me tt my ideas were simplistic..haha i was thinking "simpleton" nah..but i knew he didn't mean that..am i simple thinker..personally i just like things to be simple..and well straight..but that's not the way it's going..have to sort lots of stuff out..room's a big mess..tornado just passed through it or something..had a quarrel with mum..obviously she's not very happy now..tomorrow will be a new, hopefully better day..good night 30th..

B0bby

Rainyyyyyyyy day

2005-05-29T21:06:00.000+08:00

Not feeling too good today.. had a runny nose (still) and a bit of a sore throat. Coudn't really concentrate in church. Anyway i had a nap in the afternoon and felt much better after that..cooked marcoroni for dinner..too bland and did a bit of work. I mean, tried to do a bit of work, cuz i got distracted by the comp and ended up multi tasking instead..haha..

Time really flies...it's already the end of May.. and coming into June. Having promos soon..is it? it didn't really feel like half a year has passed yet..you know..as you get older..time seems to go by at increasing speeds..only 17 here but if time were to be running a race with me, it'd make me look as if i was standing still.have to go and collect my passport tomorrow..alright then, enough said, going to drench myself and then get some sleep perhaps..Good night!

--Trying hard to reamin positive

B0bby

Day after concert

2005-05-28T11:20:00.000+08:00

Concert's finally over..pity it is..i was actually enjoying practising for it :) And i've been making friends with the J1 guitar members..so it was a pretty enjoyable experience. Anyway, what's past is past, ain't good to dwell on past things. Holidays are finally here..but've got so much work to do..it won't be much of a holly..still, i'd make full use of it :) perhaps would have some time to slack perhaps...? Think i've caught a cold or something..have to keep sniffling..Wanna sleep...Damn..just remembered i left a 10 dollar note in my shirt pocket last night after coming home..better go fish it out..

At least i got some stuff done today..thinking of changing my blog name..been using this name for most of my accoutns i sign up for..nose still running..like some tap..medicine's not working *sigh* Lol i'm used to it anyway..i feel damn bored..most of lfe has been that of a mugger's but who's to blame..? ME..looking back..what's the use of mugging so hard..? just for a piece of paper at the end of the day..that could or could not get you any job..? Anywayz i'd stop bitching about it now *yawns*..only way to get thigns done is to stop bitching and sit down at it ..sleepy..wanna sleep..G00d Night

B0bby

Last Day of School :):)

2005-05-26T19:32:00.000+08:00

Finally..it's the last day of school..oficially....lol this is by no means any break for us..But no way am i gonna mention any work now. Gotta concert tomorrow..and i only managed to sell 1 ticket :") Tomorrow's Be yourself day at school..class theme's "punk" but i don't have that punk face or hairstyle haha. Bought a black tee and..planning to wear jeans. Many friends of mine thought i should cut my hair shorter and spike it, but i figured it woudn't really be myself if i did so..Don't even really know what is my real self..sometimes i tend to act differently in front of different people..you know..wear masks. Only when in the company of close friends do i take off every single mask of mine..hm..sometimes not even in front of my family. Now i understand why people say that most teens would be closer to their friends than family at around this period of time. Writing's easier than typing..thoughts seem to flow better with a pen in my hand and paper at my palms.

Small things can be important..
Why did God shape the human body using cells as a basic structure?
Whenever did somebody give you a small smile that made you feel good?
Or when a short compliment helped to make your day?
The tiny pixels making up your Computer screen or Television,
Without them would you have as much visual entertainment?
The little patterns on your kitchen curtain
Would we have as much culinary inspiration without these?
Small things matter..
Busy little things they are,
Completing and filling up our lives
Like many multi-coloured tiny pieces of a jigsaw making up a big picture-Our lives
Small things make out lives more colourful..Take for granted them you shall not.

Reuben Lim(1988-?)

Z.M. , hope you're feelin ok, haven't heard from you eversince your call. --
--Glad you're alright now ;)

B0bby

Not much done

2005-05-25T22:14:00.000+08:00

So much to do yet nothing much done..i realised i'm actually getting more and more slack. what a far cry from the way i was in Secondary school. Hopefully i'll be able to catch up with my work once the concert is over. Lolx, why does everyone think i'm a mugger? i just like to clear stuff ASAP..with understanding of course :) Mid year common test schedule came out today, reminds me of sec sch exam days yet again. Lil white sheet of paper, only thing with less subjects. Life's tough..but i guess that's what makes it worth livin

As i walk down life's long roads
and see a light at the end of the path
i tell myself to keep at that light
until i reach it..hopefully
is it that easy? nope..on the way u'd get ruts
and dirt on your bare feet but these are life's obstacles one has to overcome
Too clean a path makes one too clean and dull
Too rough a path makes one too ragged and coarse
A Bumpy path with ups and downs makes one street wise and yet..civilised :)

Reuben Lim (1988-?)

B0bby

Training for the day

2005-05-22T21:12:00.000+08:00

Went running this afternoon, haha i didn't stop, track was pretty muddy and i almost slipped. After that went to do some pull ups mostly assisted however :P but what matters is that i've done some. Lifted some lightweights at the gym and did some stretching all in a day's work.

B0bby

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2005-05-22T14:33:00.000+08:00

The fruit of a promise is sweet
But bitter is the seed within

Reuben Lim (1988-?)

Elites always keep their promises

B0bby